13 November 2011

Let's Be Honest Here

This is what I want.
{photos via [here] and [here]. ub-sessed with both.}

I am not ashamed.  I am surprised at the number of people who I know should feel the same, but don't.  I can not get over the number of people who scoff at it, and the number of women in that group who find it degrading.  Because I don't.  I don't think it means giving up who I am.  I don't think it makes me any less of a person.  This is what I individually want and need.  And contrary to a seemingly popular belief, it is empowering.  I crave that love & service & challenge.  But at the slightest whisper or faintest mention of how I feel, the person with whom I express these desires clams up--in that I disagree with you but want to be polite so I won't say anything kind of way.  It pains me.  Because if everyone feels this way, it leaves me with no one.  That's what scares me most.


There's so much more rounded out emotion to how I feel about this, but only so much can be conveyed in a blog.  


Jennifer said...

1. I miss you
3. Agreed. I wish I didn't feel like I had to say, "Despite all my hyper-feminist talk, this is what I want." Because, really, I don't see a conflict.

Laura Tait said...

I want it too!! Don't be ashamed!!

Megan said...

You're not alone.

Charlotte said...

Okay, so I don't know how this post slipped through my radar. I love it.

I'm here to tell you that you've got it right. Marriage is empowering. It is love and service, and it is certainly a challenge.

And really, I think that marriage is supposed to make you more yourself. You've got it all right, Camille. You really do.

Debra L. Andersen said...

Me too! Secrets out!